Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, Arnold Schwarzenegger is someone I greatly admire, I think I told you that before. And he has this philosophy of counting the little wins, looking back and seeing how far you have come, instead of constantly feeling like a failure because you wait for the picture perfect moment. And I... Continue Reading →
Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, Well, beloved, I did tell you that Monday will be a day of many small successes. I am not a fool to believe that tomorrow won't be a crush - but, today I did good. Before I start numerating my achievements, that were many today, actually. Let's address the fact... Continue Reading →
Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, It's 21:00 at night. My meds are finally settled, so I do not have a splitting head ache. My neck is a little sore after sitting at the desk for 8 hours today. Yes. I did. I have just finished mapping the plot for Mac and Alastair. I feel... amazing.... Continue Reading →
Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, Hello my snake, I hope the change of seasons treats you well and you keep warm. I am in a little bit of a mood today, so you will have to bare with me. The migraine is better then yesterday, but I am still groggy and very slow. The cocktail... Continue Reading →
Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, A healthy person, even after a long illness, will always compare their state to what they "used to be able to do". And so in this comparison, I am behind. A lot. But I am definitely better. The first three days of school were rough. Apparently, walking outside is different... Continue Reading →
Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, My love. I missed you and this sacred place more then I could express with words but, yet again, I am reminded that when one does the job of 10 and then knocked down - the mental recovery and step back into that type of life is painfully gradual. It's... Continue Reading →
Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, You know what I noticed? I noticed that when I am angry and frustrated, my sexual day fantasies – the ones that keep me going, functioning and writing – become violent. Shallow. Is that why the world of smut writing full of Alpha fantasies with women pounded into a pulp… Continue Reading →
Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, Hello my love, how is summer treating you over the seas? I hope you have an opportunity to walk around the parks a little and see some green. Do not get closed up in four walls - your office and your cave - and retreat. The sun is important for... Continue Reading →
Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, Hello beloved. I know I am feeling mentally better today because for the first time since I got the surgery I woke up feeling your hands on me, again. We usually meet in that space between sleep and awake but I suppose my mind was too occupied with pain, depression,... Continue Reading →
Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, Hello beloved. I have so much to tell you, so much to share with you, and yet I feel like I don't have words. Where do I start after 40 days of almost complete silence? Where do I even begin? Well, the surgery was on the 9th of July. That... Continue Reading →
Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, Hello beloved. I do not know how much I will be able to write, but I will do my best. Yesterday was the first time I was able to do some embroidery for 20 minutes. And today was the first day I woke up without debilitating pain and could actually... Continue Reading →
Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, I am sorry I am not communicating, my love. The surgery went well. I am recovering. I just can't operate my damn hands long enough to write to you properly. The pain is manageable. So far, 11 days post surgery I am ok. I am not forgetting you, my love,Yours... Continue Reading →
Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, I am not scared. What makes you think such a ridiculous thing? I am sitting here at the reception of the hospital, on time, thank you very much, blinded by the 9/10 neck arthritis pain because I could not take meds, of course. And I am not scared. I’m fucking… Continue Reading →
Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, There is a very good chance that I will have to miss a few days writing to you. I am behind in a manner I cannot even explain. Yesterday was a rainstorm, and the week I was supposed to get my period on, so, the double hit: hormones and the… Continue Reading →
Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio, Hello beloved. It has been three days since I started the Yaz contraceptive pill, and 2 days since I opened the morning with 2 tablespoons of prune juice, just before my morning English Breakfast tea. The result is that I feel light and alert in a good way. I always… Continue Reading →
