79. The Debts List

Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio,

I am truly dreading this post. But after more than 75 letters to you, it’s time to face the facts. This is not something I am enjoying recounting, and with the looming surgery and the stress of it all, you will have to excuse me if I rush through this.

I told you before: the only way my pride did not get to me from all the kindness around me is because I do not consider charity, well, charity. Those are all loans that I catalogue meticulously and intend to repay with 100% interest (the numbers below are already converted to that). When I am on the giving side again, I will make sure to return every penny.

This list is kind of a road map, too. I need to clear these debts before I can be free enough to find you. And, if there is any part of this that makes me feel like we will never meet, it’s all these numbers. But what the hell:

My Debts List:

Official Debts:

• Student Loan → $27,000 (interest 0%)
• Business Credit Card → $10, 691.79 (interest 19.9%)
• Personal Credit Card → $27,823.42 (interest 19.9%)
• Credit Line → $28,900 (interest 9.44%)

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💲Total Official Debt: $94,415.21 💲

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Unofficial Debts:

• My University (Scholarship and subsidy of food) → $30,000
• My Grandpa (Helped buy the first house in the warland. He is deceased, so the payment will be paid to Dad.) → $20,000
• My Mom (Sent money to help buy the house in Canada, and sends money three times a year) → $106,000
• Water Dog Sagittarius (A good friend who gave us endless emotional, moral, and financial support and friendship) → $16,000
• Neighbours (3 families supporting us in every way possible) → $ 34,800
• Social Services (Over the years helped us several times with food, help in the house, camps for the kids and more) → $28,000
• The Worship Place (Helped with religious celebrations, hosted us for holiday meals at a discount or free and helped pay for my religious divorce) → $2,500
• A Second Worship Place (hosted us for holiday meals at a discount or free and helped pay for my religious divorce) → $29,000
• A Worship Place in Manchester, UK (Helped with the religious divorce)→ $500
• The Christmas Organization (Gave kids presents for Christmas and New Year’s) → $3,000
• The Community Center (Supplied a holiday food hamper three times a year, kids’ backpacks for the new school year and some grocery gift cards) → $5,400
• The Kids’ Schools (Helped with fees, food for the kids at school, sent home food and toys, and supported us after my hospital visit) → $10,200
• Private People (I have a list of neighbours, teachers, and worship place visitors who individually bought us food and supported us after I was hospitalized) → $550
• Food Banks (We are supported across 2 major food banks and tried a few small ones too) → $18,500
• Big Brother (Activities for the kids and connecting us with different opportunities) → $4,800
• Summer Camps (Drago is sent for 2 different camps this year, a total of 4 weeks away from home in the summer. Stallion for 3 weeks, one camp) → $19,864
• A Community Second Hand Clothes Shop (I am not sure yet what will come of it, but I was asked to come and choose clothes for the kids) → $500

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💲 → Total Unofficial Debt: $340,864 💲

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Depressing, isn’t it? Lol. 
People in my situation, who have very little income and a lot of debt, what they call “in financial need,” never make these kinds of calculations, don’t they? Because everyone likes to receive “free stuff,” but the truth is that nothing is free in this world. And I am acutely aware that someone out there is paying my bills.

So, on that depressing note, I will be retiring to sleep now. 
Still sure you want to stick around? Lol. 
Yours, if you’d still want me. 
Oxy.
June 3, 2026

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